When Peace Finally Comes
Recently I noticed I haven’t been checking my Memories on facebook anymore. Before, when I would wake up in the morning, immediately I check my fb for any updates on people’s lives but before anything else I would check my memories. Though I tried checking a few times in the past few days and I realized that most of my posts were… a bit bitter. Even though it was masked as humble bragging, most of my posts throughout the years were bitter.
I have to admit that I indeed was a bitter person back then. I was undergoing so many things in my life that I hadn’t noticed I was turning into the Grinch inside – green with envy with everyone else around me. I felt as if all the people around me was having the time of their lives moving forward and there I was, stuck in the past and just can’t seem to move on. Mostly it was because of my past lovers, or maybe it’s just that I can’t seem to accept the changes that is happening around me and myself. Don’t get me wrong, I tried my best to move forward and I did. I was able to graduate college, find a job, got into dating a few guys, but I was still a bitter girl despite that. Then the pandemic happened.
Not to undermine what is happening around the world, but maybe this pandemic is a lesson to some of us. In terms of letting ourselves become self aware, this pandemic surely made an impact in helping us reflect from our busy and individualistic lives. I am included in the people who learned a lot about themselves and others during this long pause in a fast paced world. I learned that peace that comes from Christ is unexpected and surpasses all understanding. And finally, instead of bitterness, I have peace in my heart now.
I am holding on to this passage from John 16:33, which says, “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
Indeed who knows peace better than Jesus? When we surrender our lives to Him, including our anxieties, our past, or doubts, our troubles, we will know peace. That is what I am experiencing during these times and I am hoping it could inspire you, my dear reader, that we should just give our worries to Jesus for us to have rested heart.
“And the effect of righteousness will be peace, and the result of righteousness, quietness and trust forever.” ~ Isaiah 32:17
Know Jesus, know peace.